Abstract
This paper is based on my diary entries, personal letters, interviews, contributions to conferences or passages from books and articles published during the past decade. It attempts, in a purely subjective way, to evaluate the dynamic transformation which I have witnessed. Highlights are (1) my response to the Wende, which began with men and women overthrowing the totalitarian structures of the German Democratic Republic (GDR) and trying to establish a democratic and humanitarian society, and ended with the complete destruction of GDR economy and culture; (2) the changes in the situation of women after 1989 and the East German independent women's movement's rise and decline; (3) the means instrumental to transforming the GDR into an economically derelict province of the Federal Republic; and (4) the hopeful signs which allow me to be optimistic with respect to the future.