Reuniting with Michael: An Autoethnography of a Police Officer’s Experience with PTSD

Abstract

This article presents an autoethnographic exploration of trauma experienced by the author, a former police officer turned academic and an offender whom the author knew in his former and current roles. By intertwining personal narratives, the study sheds light on the multifaceted nature of post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) and its profound consequences. The article’s objective is twofold: to provide an intimate and introspective account of trauma experienced within the context of violent victimization and to underscore the effects of PTSD, the transformative potential of therapeutic interventions, and the consequences of its absence. Writing in an evocative style, the author delves into his experiences as a police officer and reflects on the emotional and psychological effects of exposure to violence, both from his perspective and of the participant. The article emphasizes the importance of incorporating subjective dimensions of lived experiences expressed through personal voice. Ultimately, this autoethnographic study adds to the growing body of research on trauma by providing unique insights into the experiences of both trauma survivors. By sharing personal narratives, the article aims to contribute to a deeper understanding of trauma and its long-lasting effects while emphasizing the importance of therapeutic interventions for healing and resilience.

Keywords:

• Trauma
• violence
• post traumatic stress disorder
• autoethnography
• evocative writing

Disclosure statement

No potential conflict of interest was reported by the author(s).

Data availability statement

The data supporting this study’s findings are available from the corresponding author, [ERM], upon reasonable request.

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Eric R. Meyer

Eric R. Meyer, PhD, is an Assistant Professor in the Criminal Justice Program and The School of Medicine at Creighton University. His research agenda includes using art to affect social change and exploring criminal justice topics through a public health lens.