Some Thoughts on My Own Training Analysis

Abstract

This paper, which describes my personal experience in training analysis, documents a form of contamination that eventually occurs in a relatively small psychoanalytic association. This contamination was a facilitating factor in the development of “communicational noise,” which disembogues in frequent opportunities to block or distort the psychoanalytic process of the candidate.

My own personal training analysis was blocked by some of the disturbances occurring in my psychoanalytic association—disturbances related to a splitting movement that occurred just when I began. The problems started with the very election of my training analyst.

I will describe the multiple vicissitudes motivated by these occurrences, including persecutory anxieties and fragmentation fantasies projected onto the institution.

It is possible that most of the high institutional commitment developed by our generation originates in the circumstances herein.